Hey Buster [Brown]!
Know that the fact that your journal has been a bit neglected the past few weeks means one thing--YOU [and your big sis] have not! You've been teaching me a lot and I've tried my best to be a good student for you. I'm learning, and accepting, that you are different from how Ainsley was and that's okay. You like to be rocked, bounced, and walked a lot. You want to eat when you want to eat. A schedule? Yeah, there's no such thing for your feeding. You like the sunshine and so I'll sit you in your bouncer with the blinds up next to the back doors. You like your paci, but can barely keep it in your mouth so it keeps you content for about 10.7 seconds.
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| Easter Sunday |
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| Easter Sunday |
But you know what? I hold you until my shoulder burns, and then hold you longer because it's comforting to you. I contort my arm as I drive down the road try to hold in your paci and comfort you until my arm tingles, and then I twist it some more because it might just work. I stop what I am doing at nearly a moments notice to nurse you, and then an hour and an half later, I find myself stopping again.
Little man, regardless of your differences from Ains, I love you so much. You are
my son and I treasure who
you are and who
you choose to become.
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| Cousin Sondra |
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| Attempt at Clum Family Grandkids |
Just last night as your papa was holding you at supper, I caught myself lost in thought. Looking into your captivating eyes, just like your papa's, I wondered what else you would inherent from him--his sense of humor, his interest in the outdoors, hie tender love, his vast knowledge.
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| Cousin Micah |
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| Massie Cousins |
Tomorrow I head back to school, just one day shy of 8 weeks with you. These first several weeks have flown and like so many other things in some ways it seems like you were born just yesterday, and in other ways, I can't imagine life without you. You are already growing and learning and changing. You are less fussy than you were before [Hal-le-lu-jah!!] You hold your head up and look around like a turtle stretching its neck. You turn your head in recognition when your papa or I speak.
Try not to be too demanding on your papa tomorrow when he's home alone with you and your sis!
Love you little man!
-Momma
